Let Uncertainty Drive You

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Annoying motivational/optimistic photo because I am annoying. Just kidding. Read this thing I wrote. Please.

A year ago this week, I was moved into my college dorm feeling completely ecstatic, overwhelmed, terrified and every other emotion a person can possibly feel. Freshman year was a roller coaster. There were the late nights that I stayed up with friends laughing those deep belly laughs that feel like an ab workout, and other nights I put myself to bed early after finding myself feeling deeply alone and crying on the itchy dorm carpet. There were many one-person dance parties hosted. There was a lot of Bova’s cannoli or Maria’s nachos eaten past midnight. There were fights to be had. There were the horrible professors and the disappointing grades here and there. But I do not take any of it for granted – both the good and the bad because despite it all, I am so thrilled to be back.

Yes, I still remember all of the lows suffered. The delusions of a young heart, the times I was an awful friend and the procrastination that left me in a mess of stress. From all of it, I learned who I was and who I wanted to be. I came into my freshman year wanting so much, but I had to banish many of those desires. I wish I had let the unknown creep in more because the minute you let go of your expectations is the moment that anything can happen. So as all of you college freshman, roll onto your college campuses feeling all the feels as they say (or maybe I just say this, whatever) please, let one emotion rise to the top: uncertainty.

Embrace the mystery of what is going to be ahead of you for your freshman year. Let curiosity allow you to walk a messy but fulfilling path to reaching your potential. I’m not trying to write this as some all knowing upperclassmen because I certainly am not. While I hold many regrets from my freshman year, I do my best to hopefully right my wrongs and then move on knowing that the past is in the past.

Therefore, I sort of hope that reading this would allow even just one of you to avoid regretting moments in this incredible year of your life. Be driven by the uncertain future. Don’t take your education for granted. Do stupid stuff but always be safe. Break the mold and be full of contradictions. Define yourself and don’t let others try and stuff you into a box. It’s okay to cry because you won’t remembers those nights. However, you will remember the nights with your friends where you can’t stop smiling. When you look back and recall those nights a few days, weeks, months, even a year later, that smile will return to your face.

College is such a massive opportunity above all. Go in with an open mind, stay positive and just have some fun.


Thank You Notes to Strangers

Thank you…


…to the cashier who complimented my shirt. It was new and a little more cropped than I’m used to so it boosted my confidence in wearing it.


…to the man driving the seafood truck, who let me go in front of him so I didn’t get blocked by the traffic behind him. If you hadn’t, I would have been late to work.


…to the construction worker who flashed me a big smile and peace sign when he saw my green VW bug drive by. Smiles are contagious.

Positive Thoughts

I was reading this lovely article on Cup of Jo, and it finished off with this question and answer with the author and interviewee:


Do you have an overall beauty philosophy?
“You’re prettier than you think. Everything in the world is beautiful, people are beautiful. You are the person that gets to experience yourself closest at hand, so enjoy it.”


I just thought it was such a nice sentiment and wanted to share 🙂

A few of my favorite things (right now)

The story of a fuck-off fund. I’m struggling to save money and not spend it all as soon as the paycheck comes, but this piece TOTALLY changed my perspective on having savings.


I hate the gym. I’ll probably drag myself there once school starts, but I thought Man Repeller did a great article on some exercise alternative: How to Become a Low-Key Exercise Person.


Casey Neistat is my favorite YouTuber at the moment, and his video on selling a home that symbolized a significant milestone in his life was so touching.


Been making this salad non-stop. It is so great especially when topped with avocado!


This article reminded me of all the manners books my mom bought me as a child. I don’t know why we had so many. I guess, I was a horribly rude child!


So excited to see this incredible Maine restaurant profiled on NBC News!


Jessi Klein, the head writer for Inside Amy Schumer just released her memoir. I can’t say this is a favorite quite yet though as I have yet to read it, but I have listened to about 100+ interviews of her, and I want her to be my cool cousin.


And last but certainly not least, Bachelor in Paradise (the very best of all the Bachelor adjacent shows) is back TONIGHT! Catch my live-tweeting at 8 pm sharp! Here’s a sneak peek of all the drama to come: http://abc.go.com/shows/the-bachelorette/video/vdka3277797